Former Signing Ninja
- Jun 10, 2011
Have you considered counseling?I'm not fine, I can't wait. It's different for everyone but working out/eating healthy introduced this mental regime that kept me disciplined, made me confident, and gave me time to just not think about all of the bad in life and think of the good.
Target has that effect after a while. Probably because nobody even knows what the expectations are, only that our best efforts aren't enough anymore.I’m really starting to feel like nothing I do matters.
Is that the definition of Nihilism?
Idk...I just feel empty, and pointless.
I don’t feel like I’m good for anything right now.
Everyone and I mean everyone is a burden at some point. Remind yourself what IS working in your life. Keep a sense of perspective. You sound like you can take care of business. And , well, cake. Not too much though.I understand what you both are saying, but I feel like everything I do outside of work is a mistake as well.
I feel like I’m making everyone’s life worse. As if everyone is operating one way, and I’m just not.
I’m losing everyone I know. People don’t want me around when they find out I’m depressed and not normal.
I just want to give up entirely. It was foolish of me to think I could have anyone, be it friends or whatever.
To say the least, I feel like a total burden.
Just be calm, get to know the other people and if things seem sketchy be concocting an escape plan. I never stayed in a hostel, but if the environment seems chill you should be good. If the reviews of the place are good then you should be fine. Hope everything works out.I'm outing myself, but I don't give a damn anymore. I just flew across the country for my mother's memorial tomorrow.
I'm all alone, and it's emotionally hard as shit.
And now I'm scared that I made a really bad mistake. My Seroquel knocks me stupid for hours. I'll be incredibly hard to rouse, if I can be woken, and coordination-wise, I can barely get out of bed to go to the bathroom, much less react to a crisis.
And because I flew across the country for my mother's memorial and I'm all alone and because it's July so nearly every place is booked solid, I chose a hostel for inexpensive accommodations. Dorm room, mixed gender. If something bad happens, there's no way I could fight off a frisky roommate, or alert everyone else in the place that I need help.
Why did I think this was a good idea?