Anyone here deal with mental illness?

happygoth

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I would definitely discuss this with your HR leader. Has this happened before? Could you have something physically wrong with you, like blood sugar issues that may be exacerbated by stress? I've had my blood sugar dip and felt like I was going to pass out at work, the anxiety from not being able to leave the area to get a snack or something to drink can make it worse until one gets into full-blown panic mode.
 
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It use to happen when I was in high school but I usually was able to make it to the bathroom lol. I can usually control my anxiety but when i get nausea I just can’t help myself.
 

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Are you currently seeing a doctor? If so, discuss what happened and come up with a treatment plan. If not, get one. If uninsured, look into the low cost and no cost options in your county.

Ditto with @happygoth , could it have been hypoglycemia or another non-brain physical issue triggering anxiety? Double ditto @redeye58 , talk to HR. If possible, see if there are sales floor openings.
 

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I'm really thankful my only medication is something I can go without for a day or two before issues arise. It's just Montelukast for my asthma and generic zyrtec every night for allergies since my asthma is allergy induced.
I hope things get better, she definitely had no right of way switching into your lane while you were right there. People are just so petty and self-absorbed and they don't pay attention on the road. I hope the OON bill won't be too bad.

I've been noticeably drained the last two days and I woke up today just feeling like dump. My whole body is sore, I'm tired after sleeping for 10+ hours, and for some reason I just feel disassociated. I feel like I've been awake for an hour but it's only been twenty minutes, time is going VERY slow.


At work two nights ago I started to notice it when I was doing what I usually do, which is dishes for closing the department and my other co-workers wipe down the rest of the department. I just felt like I didn't care, I was scrubbing dishes and just not being careful. Hard to describe but my mindset was blank and I was just doing the job... with no worries to the quality of my work. It's hard to fuck up dishes but you definitely can.

Last night, the feeling was getting worse. I wasn't really talking to anybody, not really paying attention, I think part of it is because my hearing aids aren't working properly right now but I was just disassociating again. I was in the back of the Food Court making pizzas for a ton of pizza orders we got and out of the blue the girl running the register calls back to me and says "hey, you're doing a really great job, so I just wanted to say thank you." and I honestly thought she was BSing me. I asked her "Really?" and "I feel like there's a but..?" and she said there wasn't. Honestly made me feel really good, I'm terrible with compliments but last night I was just dead inside. I really want to thank her for the kind words, because last night right before I left she high-fived me and said I was "on top of it"

In the back of my head, I feel like she knew something was wrong with me. She really could have just been saying that to say it but I still really appreciate it but couldn't get my appreciation out because I'm dog-shit with compliments and my current state of whatever this is.

On my way home last night driving, I felt like what I was seeing out of my windshield was just a video I was watching. It felt really dangerous, I was still driving and in control but I felt blank inside. I remember someone pulled out of a parking lot onto the street in front of me and I didn't slow down at all. They weren't close enough to hit me but not far enough away to where I should have at least let off the gas. I felt disassociated again, like reality wasn't 100% there for me.

I'm not going crazy, but I don't think my head is 100% well anymore lmao. I was fine Monday, I had the whole weekend off, life was good, but suddenly Tuesday night it flipped like a light switch. Life is still good.
I think I'm feeling so drained is because I'm working a full forty hour week this week. I have also been eating a TON this week, eating when I'm not even hungry. I just realized that now so I'm going to stop that. The weather got drastically colder on Tuesday so I think seasonal moods are in full-swing.
 

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@TTGOz that sounds like how I used to feel when I had a hormonal imbalance years ago. I assume you are male (based solely on your avatar) so that probably isn't the case, lol. I had been on birth control pills for about two years when they started really screwing up my system. Definitely fuzzy-headedness and almost feeling disassociated, like the way you described looking out your car window. When I stopped the pill it got worse for a while as my body readjusted, then very slowly, like over the course of a year, my symptoms dissipated.

Go to the doctor, get a complete physical, tell them what you are feeling. Amount of sleep, blood sugar levels, mental and physical stress, all these things can effect one's well-being. Sending positive thoughts!
 

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@TTGOz that sounds like how I used to feel when I had a hormonal imbalance years ago. I assume you are male (based solely on your avatar) so that probably isn't the case, lol. I had been on birth control pills for about two years when they started really screwing up my system. Definitely fuzzy-headedness and almost feeling disassociated, like the way you described looking out your car window. When I stopped the pill it got worse for a while as my body readjusted, then very slowly, like over the course of a year, my symptoms dissipated.

Go to the doctor, get a complete physical, tell them what you are feeling. Amount of sleep, blood sugar levels, mental and physical stress, all these things can effect one's well-being. Sending positive thoughts!
Yup, I'm a guy. I know I've had weird hormonal imbalances in the past, but it never affected me mentally.. it just made my hair grow weird. My legs would grow hair on the outside portions but like the inside portions of my thighs and calves never grew hair past little stubble. Since I've lost a lot of weight I have really hairy legs, now. I think that resolved. You described it exactly the way it was, fuzzy, not all there... but you're there. I've been having acne breakouts the last week or so, I've been waking up with new pimples every day and my face just doesn't look as clear. I believe it's finally clearing up, too. I kind of forgot that was happening.

I am due for a yearly physical, thinking about going all out and saying everything that is wrong. I just got onto my employer's health plan so I'm thinking now is the time to start setting up things for my health. They also offer six free therapy sessions a year so I think I'm going to try that out, even if I don't 100% believe I need it.

Thank you! I feel better now, like I'm ready for the day to continue once again. Still thankful this thread exists
 

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You are welcome! And that sounds like a good plan, definitely go for it, utilize all the tools at your disposal. I shouldn't have said that it couldn't be a hormonal imbalance just because you're male though, because I do remember reading that while men's hormones are usually more stable than women's, men can still have imbalances. How sexist of me! 🤪
 

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It also sounds like you are coming down sick. Just because our brains dont want to work within normal parameters doesn't mean we can't get sick in other ways. Our brains aren't the cause of all bouts of feeling bad.

Having said that, get your TSH checked. And double check your medicine, make sure there's no fill mistakes. And simply switching generic manufacturers can cause trouble, the generics are essentially the same between all manufacturers and name brand, but not completely identical.
 

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It also sounds like you are coming down sick. Just because our brains dont want to work within normal parameters doesn't mean we can't get sick in other ways. Our brains aren't the cause of all bouts of feeling bad.

Having said that, get your TSH checked. And double check your medicine, make sure there's no fill mistakes. And simply switching generic manufacturers can cause trouble, the generics are essentially the same between all manufacturers and name brand, but not completely identical.
Ahhhh I've been fearing getting sick. I haven't been sick all year compared to last year when I got sick every two months. That was awful... I've had perfect attendance at work and everyone around me is getting sick but SOMEHOW I'm still not sick. I legitimately have dreams about it. I can feel the stuffiness, the runniness, and the coughing of it all WHILE working and it just ain't something I need right now.

My medication is actually the generic already, I believe. I get store-brand "zyrtec" and my actual prescription is Singulair but now I get Montelukast which is the medicinal name but it's the generic. I'm not actually prescribed for anti-histamines, I've just taken them once a night for as long as I can remember. I'm gonna need a full check-up so I hope the doctor will actually take the time to address most things and set me up with other doctors for other things. I've had stipulations my thyroid might be weird but I don't know, so a doctor could help.

I'm feeling quite a bit more energized and motivated today, which is relieving. It's also a day off from work so I'm enjoying it.
 
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I’m just wondering if anyone else here has imposter syndrome? I’m a TL, but I’m never confident that I really deserve to be one. I suspect that my former STL made me a TL to help me. Do any of you ever have these feelings?
 
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Tessa120

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I had to look that one up. The summary I read, overcoming it sounded a lot like the thought replacement that I had in cognitive behavioral therapy. Even if you don't go for actual therapy, looking up the thought replacement and CBT may give you the tools to start feeling like you deserve what you got and you got it based on your hard work and merits, not luck.

Edit: That means your STL made you a TL because you showed leadership potential and are good at what you do, not as a gift or lesson that you didn't earn. Say it until it sinks into your subconscious.

People say bad things to themselves, some horrible people say bad things to others, and eventually it becomes internalized and that's how they see and believe in themselves. Thought replacement is the opposite, you deliberately say good things to yourself, you read the evidence of you being good, out loud if need be, over and over, until the good things become internalized and are the dominant go-to beliefs. Even negative events are reframed in a not self directed negative light, like "Stan got the promotion I wanted, but this is incentive to work smarter and educate so I get an even better assignment" instead of "Damn it, Stan got it, I suck -or- he's the boss' favorite."
 
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I thought maybe we could support each other and if there is another thread about this by all means let me know! I was diagnosed recently with Bipolar II. I have dealt with severe depression and anxiety since high school. I'm having a terrible day today feeling alone and like I'm being left behind. I feel like everyone has their life together except me. I have one friend (and a very big loving family but they live 6 hrs away), I'm not seeing anyone (and valentines day is coming up yay) and I still love at home because I can't afford to move out. When I start feeling like this I try to shift my thoughts which thankfully the medication I'm on has helped keep my mind from racing 24/7 so I can control them more, but sometimes it's hard to do that. It would just be nice to feel not so alone.
I do, I have 2 anxiety disorders and depression. Used to be suicidal but I’m okay now. ❤
 

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Up, down, up, down, just like a roller coaster. Someone needs to park it for a few minutes, I want off. And I'm not talking suicide or mania/depression. My life is just fucking crazy, and every time I think life has leveled out, nope.

I think I need to throw a pity party. Literally. Get some cake, get some sparkling cider, get a big tray of chicken nuggets from Chick-fil-A. Watch a silly comedy movie or a B-grade horror movie that is laughable. I don't have any local friends, but I've got friendly coworkers and ex-coworkers, maybe invite the husband's and daughter's coworkers. Laugh a little too much, stay up a little too late. Maybe it'll lift my spirits and give me some more mental strength to face the current bad parts of life.
 
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I suffer from anxiety and depression, i recently was prescribed zoloft a month ago and its been on and off. I still have days where im like a crab and i tuck in my shell, i dont txt much, i dont call much, i dont eat much, ect. Then there are days where i am smiling and i feel like a coked out cheerleader lol.. i have a lot going on in my personal life and im trying to make the best out of any situation i am in and its hard.. im a single mom and working seasonal which is great because my sons school schedule. Yet we are staying in shelters and its exhausting because i dont want to come from work to more people being people. I want to come back to a place thats more peaceful and calm.. im holding it together and pushing myself hard everyday at target to get a permanent placement and pushing myself here in the shelter life to not wanna fight someone lol.. i have no one to really talk with and no one to support me so thanks for making this thread because its comforting to know i am not alone in the struggle
 
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I suffer from anxiety and depression, i recently was prescribed zoloft a month ago and its been on and off. I still have days where im like a crab and i tuck in my shell, i dont txt much, i dont call much, i dont eat much, ect. Then there are days where i am smiling and i feel like a coked out cheerleader lol.. i have a lot going on in my personal life and im trying to make the best out of any situation i am in and its hard.. im a single mom and working seasonal which is great because my sons school schedule. Yet we are staying in shelters and its exhausting because i dont want to come from work to more people being people. I want to come back to a place thats more peaceful and calm.. im holding it together and pushing myself hard everyday at target to get a permanent placement and pushing myself here in the shelter life to not wanna fight someone lol.. i have no one to really talk with and no one to support me so thanks for making this thread because its comforting to know i am not alone in the struggle
We are always here to listen to you.
 

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I just found out that a friend died.
She had cervical cancer and never told anybody.
She was the wife of the DVR counselor who got me into my job and did amazing work as a independent job support worker, helping people with disabilities find work and then coaching them in their jobs.
We gave each other a hard time constantly.
I'm going to miss her a lot.
Fuck cancer so much.
 

Tessa120

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A great aunt of mine did the same thing, not tell anyone (other than her husband) that she was dying of cancer. When she died, there was a lot of strain on the family, my grandmother so wanted to tell her off for not giving people time to prepare, but she wasn't there to chew out anymore. My mom said no one even knows what kind of cancer she had, since it had spread.

Not having time to prepare, that tears your heart out, there's no chance to have some form of the acceptance part of grief.
 

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Sometimes people choose to die in on their own terms and they don’t want other people involved. They chose. Don’t beat yourself up.
 

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I want to talk to a therapist.

But I have a screwed up neck, the ortho surgeon wants me to have physical therapy 3 times a week, and then re-evaluate in a month. So specialist copays two or three days a week (whatever I can afford) for a month.

And my psychiatrist this week, who already wants me in therapy. So specialist copay this week.

And the MRI report noted something completely unexpected, so PCP next week, copay, and likely I'll be seeing an endocrinologist. So specialist copay plus whatever follow up. I'm certain that step one will be blood work, so lab copays.

I can't afford a therapist until after I'm physically well. But that's why I want a therapist, because I'm physically unwell. And I make too much for free services.
Maybe I’m misunderstanding but your post seems more about you.
 

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I want to talk to a therapist.

But I have a screwed up neck, the ortho surgeon wants me to have physical therapy 3 times a week, and then re-evaluate in a month. So specialist copays two or three days a week (whatever I can afford) for a month.

And my psychiatrist this week, who already wants me in therapy. So specialist copay this week.

And the MRI report noted something completely unexpected, so PCP next week, copay, and likely I'll be seeing an endocrinologist. So specialist copay plus whatever follow up. I'm certain that step one will be blood work, so lab copays.

I can't afford a therapist until after I'm physically well. But that's why I want a therapist, because I'm physically unwell. And I make too much for free services.
Try TMLR. It's good after you stop working for Target. Pay and benefits says 18 months. Might be worth a shot.
 
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