Flabbergasted
Ex-GSA
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- May 20, 2014
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Since I started at Target a little over a year ago, lots of things have changed. I've seen people come and go, I've been promoted, and more recently, I've been written up. Let me be totally honest and share something about myself that's been affecting me recently, particularly after having been written up: I think I'm experiencing some type of depression as a result of the job. Lately, I've been feeling like I'm underappreciated, disliked and unwanted by not just members of leadership (TLs, ETLs, and STL), but even by fellow team members, particularly those who felt it necessary to report me for muttering a derogatory word under my breath. For a while now, I've felt like nothing I accomplish at work is good enough. I have literally been called a disappointment. I'm looking for new jobs right now, but I feel ready to go sometime within the next month whether or not I land another job, because I just don't feel I can handle this shithole anymore. I didn't want to say that, and I didn't want to believe it. I don't want to feel like a failure as a worker and as a human being. I had better hopes for my time with Spot, but things just didn't go the way they should have and I'm ready to give up this part of my life.
One year with Target has been long and exhausting. My performance in other aspects of life have suffered as a result; my first year grades in college were poor, I barely see my immediate family anymore due to being either at work or school (rarely at home). I don't know how some people manage to stick around even longer -- 10 years, 20 years, etc. I just don't get it. I'm sure their experiences have been better than mine. If I didn't have a boss who probably just wants to get rid of me, maybe my experience would have faired better. If I had been better with the politicking aspect of retail, I'm sure I'd already be a TL. After all, they promoted one individual from softlines TM to GSA to TL in just two months time. I suppose if there's anything to take from this experience, it's to kiss as much booty as possible. Sad indeed.
Has anyone else suffered such mental exhaustion and/or depression from working at this company?
One year with Target has been long and exhausting. My performance in other aspects of life have suffered as a result; my first year grades in college were poor, I barely see my immediate family anymore due to being either at work or school (rarely at home). I don't know how some people manage to stick around even longer -- 10 years, 20 years, etc. I just don't get it. I'm sure their experiences have been better than mine. If I didn't have a boss who probably just wants to get rid of me, maybe my experience would have faired better. If I had been better with the politicking aspect of retail, I'm sure I'd already be a TL. After all, they promoted one individual from softlines TM to GSA to TL in just two months time. I suppose if there's anything to take from this experience, it's to kiss as much booty as possible. Sad indeed.
Has anyone else suffered such mental exhaustion and/or depression from working at this company?